This is terrific, and it's so awesome of you to share :D
On a personal note, I'm delighted I'm not the only person who refers to myself as like... who I was and who I am now. I'm Beth, a trans woman, but to me I'll always have been Charlie, a dude, for the vast majority of my life. It's not something I'm ashamed of by any means, it's a very important part of me 🧡 And I always felt bad about that (and always start off the same way you do: "it's different for everyone but most trans people don't see it this way, and I'm not saying either way is right or wrong, just be wary of that when you speak with others..."
Thanks for your comment! I've been a bit anxious about sharing this zine lol. I talk about my past self with my new name and pronouns, but I still think I was sincerely "living as a girl" during that time. I sometimes feel like that makes me "a fake trans person" (in the sense that I'm worried I will change my mind because I'm not "actually" trans), but... in the end, I think everyone has their own experience!
Awwwwww omg I totally get that too, re: "a fake trans person". Like... there's already so much to overcome with the shift, mentally, as it is. So many parts of my brain, for the longest time, would stealthily try to tell me I'm just "playing at it" or "faking it" etc. But I mean, I feel like it's like impostor syndrome in general: I sometimes think I'm terrible at everything and should just sit around and play video games all day cuz what's the point (especially when spiraling/dealing with depression) but that doesn't mean it's true. And I feel the same is true with being trans :D
And you're right: we're all our own people, and we all have our own experiences. And I wouldn't be who I am today if not for people sharing their experiences. Which makes it even more powerful to see things like this zine 🧡
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thank you for sharing those stories. I am sure they can provide a well needed perspective to a lot of people.
This is terrific, and it's so awesome of you to share :D
On a personal note, I'm delighted I'm not the only person who refers to myself as like... who I was and who I am now. I'm Beth, a trans woman, but to me I'll always have been Charlie, a dude, for the vast majority of my life. It's not something I'm ashamed of by any means, it's a very important part of me 🧡 And I always felt bad about that (and always start off the same way you do: "it's different for everyone but most trans people don't see it this way, and I'm not saying either way is right or wrong, just be wary of that when you speak with others..."
- ✨Beth
Thanks for your comment! I've been a bit anxious about sharing this zine lol. I talk about my past self with my new name and pronouns, but I still think I was sincerely "living as a girl" during that time. I sometimes feel like that makes me "a fake trans person" (in the sense that I'm worried I will change my mind because I'm not "actually" trans), but... in the end, I think everyone has their own experience!
Awwwwww omg I totally get that too, re: "a fake trans person". Like... there's already so much to overcome with the shift, mentally, as it is. So many parts of my brain, for the longest time, would stealthily try to tell me I'm just "playing at it" or "faking it" etc. But I mean, I feel like it's like impostor syndrome in general: I sometimes think I'm terrible at everything and should just sit around and play video games all day cuz what's the point (especially when spiraling/dealing with depression) but that doesn't mean it's true. And I feel the same is true with being trans :D
And you're right: we're all our own people, and we all have our own experiences. And I wouldn't be who I am today if not for people sharing their experiences. Which makes it even more powerful to see things like this zine 🧡
- ✨Beth
Thanks for sharing parts of your life/memories with us in this pretty poetic way ✨
Thank you for reading <3